2004-05-26-11:48 p.m.
We took a spin by Toys R Us a few nights ago to get some bubble stuff. We acquired a bubble mower that Ro boy is thoroughly addicted to using. He bubbles away for hours every day. I think we may pick another one for guests as they're cheap and Ro boy isn't going to be capable of sharing it for weeks.

Ro boy also got to see "girlie-girl play" at Toys R Us and he was appalled. The store has a Thomas train table set up for kids to play on. And for once, Ro boy had it to himself for a bit and then a little girl came up to play. She selected a truck and proceeded to drive it on the train tracks upside down and also backwards. Roen stared at her as if she had sprouted a second head and then moved to take the truck from her -- or so I thought. I was just about to launch into my sharing speech when he looked at the girl and said "ellsbeth! (elizabeth - the truck's name) Road!" and then tried to direct her to the road part of the play system because trucks don't go on tracks. I just about fell out of my chair. The girl didn't care of course and she shrugged Ro boy off and continued to drive the car on it's roof. So, Ro boy continued to stare at her like she was an alien. He'd never seen anyone who couldn't (or wouldn't) play with cars properly. You could tell he wanted to turn her car over so at least the wheels were on the track.

I crying
Ro boy gets bent out of shape about various things we won't let him do and then cries/screams/etc. One of the things he's started lately is to stop crying abruptly and come running to me with tears streaming down his face and tell me, "I crying". He usually points at the tears or starts wiping them away. It always breaks my heart.

In the last week, he's started saying "I crying" rather than actually doing it, which is nice. It's just his way of saying he's disappointed/sad/etc without so much fuss. I'm so happy about him being able to express emotions without actually shrieking. It's great.

Baby
I just started week 38 yesterday -- so I have about three weeks left until my expected due date. Every time I say "I'm 38 weeks" to people, they think I have two weeks left. It's kind of odd. I try to explain my due date is at the end of week 40 but they don't seem to get it.

I've been trying to get Ro boy to start saying Simone. He just says the "mone" part right now. I've set up the new baby hammock and put my old baby doll in it. I talk to Ro boy about babies a lot and he tries to feed my old doll juice and pats her on the head a lot. We even wrapped up bob the builder in a blanket and I showed Ro boy how to hold and rock the baby. He really loved it. He's such a rough and tumble little boy but he has his sweet side.

We've run into several infants (under 6 months) in the last few weeks and Ro boy has been super sweet to them. Although, he finds it amusing to take the binky in and out of their mouths. I do have hope that he won't hate his sister too badly. Several parents have told me that their kids hated them and not the baby. I wish newborns didn't cry so much though. I think that could be off-putting for him. Heck. I find it off-putting myself.

SAHM
Well, for the next few months I'm a real stay at home mom (SAHM). I just finished by last articles and my last stint as an editor and I'm so damn relieved. I've really come to hate my job over the last several months not because anything is wrong with it but because my mind just won't focus on it anymore and it's become harder and harder to get my work done. I'm too tired, too focused on Ro boy and things I want to do with him, too caught up in gardening ideas, and too mindful of things I need to get done before the baby gets here. Work is at the bottom of my list of thoughts and I've just been sucking at it. So --- I'm really excited about having a few months off. I have some trepidation about being on a single income again. It's been a nice change being dual income for the last 9 months. I have to start being careful with money again, which is ok. It's good discipline -- but man, a second income feels like such a safety net that won't be there anymore. I'll probably work again but not as intensely as I've been doing for the last two years. Just odds and ends for the next few years.

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